“life will be better in spring”
Tuesday, 11 January 2011 || 01:51
SHIFT:
Monday, 10 January 2011 || 05:01
It have been long ever since I cried for other reasons. I know its' stupid to cry but the tears just went down flowing. I hate this please, I hate it! Fuck man srsly, I just can't get out every single piece of shit in my mind. I wished I can be fine. But for so many days, it proved me wrong that i'm not fine at all. It also proved me one thing that I can't possibly act strong infront showing others I'm okay. I thought i'm strong but i'm like a fucking loser now.
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Venessa: Next year will be my turn crying in the hall I guess.
Natlaya: Then I would be here and hug you.
AWWWW! <3
DRAWERS- Take a peep.
Sunday, 9 January 2011 || 03:58
I was tidying my drawer earlier on and I found some stuffs. Hehehe! I know its' stupid but some things is really meaningful to me.
HEHEHE, 2 bags for 5 drawers. Not bad right.
My motivation. My fav teacher gave it to me for children's day when i'm p6!
I don't know why the heck I've starhub prepaid card. Anyway, its a $18 one. Who wants it?
Lai lai, ask it from me. Its' so wasted if I throw it away. & its' not expired yet.
I thought I threw my casing away last time! But I found it. -.-
I should've pack my drawer yesterday! I just brought another casing!
I just threw my contact lens solution because its' opened for more than 6 mths already.
My cca in pri school is Badminton. Don't ask me why I joined badminton I still so short I've no idea too! My fav wristband! Yellow somemore! <3
p3 children's day present from Ms Lai.
OMGOMG, I still remember!
My hand writing when i'm in pri 1! Big and cute!!!
I still can't believe that I did learn abacus in my pri school life.
Pupil's Dairy. One from efps another one from chij.
Height and Weight when i'm in primary 5.
TOPAZ IS THE BEST!!! Topaz is yellow house. Primary school cheer for sports day.
I gave up on the running and joined the cheer leading to support those who're running.
I did this like don't know when. I used strings to paste it. I've got nothing better to do.
My NAFA results cert. None gold! But I usually did very well for all my section except standing broad jump. :/
My best result in my whole Primary school life. Sad not? D:
My report book! My first school is CHIJ fyi.
Certificate. 9th position in class which is so sad!
3 box of mathematical instrument set. Waste money only.
HAHAHA. This is my so called dairy when I'm in pri school. My best friends all wrote something inside.
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Saturday, 8 January 2011 || 04:24
To be honest, I really love my dancemates alotalotalot! Ohplease, sucha lovely bunch of people who doesn't!?
Went to school and spent 4hrs practicing and doing formation stuffs for Sec1 orientation performance. REALLY EXCITED! I can sense that most of us is irritated when we can't get a set of movements and formations nicely. Hehe, but still, fun!
Friday, 7 January 2011 || 04:21
Thursday, 6 January 2011 || 05:57
I can slowly sense that our school is going to be better with new principal and vice-principal.
Anyway, I went to SP today. Srsly, its' so jammed up that I don't even have the mood to walk around finding course i'm interested in. So basically, I went there to eat only. I changed my mind of the course I want to take earlier on which is Hospitality Hotel Management (something like that I forgotten the name already.) & Psychology. I changed my mind of course to Business International. As what I heard its' good and I read the brochures from P which is NgeeAnn Poly's and there stated that this course include some psychology stuff too! I can kill two birds right? But no so easy. The admission points is 6 for NgeeAnn and 9 for SP. I'm going to faint. Its' achievable but hard works comes in too. I'm going to aim higher between 6-9 points. Although I know its' somehow joker here bringing such high hopes but by aiming higher, if I drop down I won't be dropping that much right? :) Like what the VP said this morning, I want to choose the school and course I like and not the other way round whereby schools deciding whether to accept me or not.
Btw, dance training tmr!!!! I don't like long breaks where there's no training because this will make me stiff and the next training bring me aches everywhere. I'm being so logical here! :D I miss dance training seriously! My heart will beat real fast halfway through lesson when I start to think of dancing on stage. It have been long ever since yet!!!! I miss the feeling so so so much! Its' like anxious and excited and after dancing you will feel great achievements. Thats what I want!~
P/s: I think my dad is setting too high for my bro. Although his results is always good. -.- He's asking my bro "which Jc you going? HC? RI? VJC?" I can bet my bro won't choose either of this even if his results is really good.
Wednesday, 5 January 2011 || 01:50
K, i'm bored. BYE.
Resolutions!
|| 01:05
- Everyone to be happy and healthy for the most important.
- Grads for second. O's this year. & its' really a killa to me. Srsly!
- Time to grow up and be mature in the sense of stop playing a fool in school! Talking nonsense to teachers/friends.
- Savingsss!!! Stop spending and start to save now! OMG. For future please, Venessa.
- Mom and Dad and family to stop worrying and believe that I can do it!
Realised that my 5 resolutions is all practical stuff and not stuff like "I want a new camera" "I want more clothes." &balhblahblah... This mostly what people will say. Srsly, stuffs like this is it so important?
& #5 is a random kind of thing. Cause I don't want my family to kept on worrying this and that. Srsly, they should start believing and leave me alone to be independent. Too much of Mummy and Daddy will only make me too spoilt to relay on them in future. Of course I know they want me best esp my Mom. But srsly I really can't stand it sometimes.
xoxo
REOPEN.
Monday, 3 January 2011 || 02:06
School reopen tomorrowww!! :( Daily routines starts tomorrow. No more up bed at 10, sleep at 1.
The only thing i'm happy is I got to see my dearest peopleee! & starts mugging from tomorrow onwards. Mugging together is fun but the disaster is after mugging and all is OOOO!!! So not mentally prepared yet.
Ohwell, my mom just nagged at me. Calling me to revise my Amaths. Blahblahblah... "Don't get into a relationship." Blahblahblah... "Boyfs calling you to study hard is all fake. In fact you're already distracted by having a r/s." Blahblahblah... I'm not even in a r/s man!! All her nags is naggy but I keep it all along as an advice. & she even say BOYFRIENDSSSSSS! With the "ssss" behind! OMG. I'M GOING TO FAINT SOON!
Anyway, I'm srsly not in a mood to go into a new r/s. What I've got through is enough for me. I really don't want to get my head into some dumb distracting r/s. I'm not saying past r/s is stupid and all. I still appreciated it but is just that I srsly don't want to get involve in all these complicated world anymore. I just want to study hard next year. & all the boy girl r/s is really a nonono to me now. :) Well done, Venessa. Claps for ya!
xx